my introduction and my personal story how I became MGTOW

I am going to tell you a brief story, about the years between age 18 to 20 of my life, and it is the story of how I burned out on women altogether. I am not a homosexual, I am a heterosexual and am physically attracted to women. But I finally just realized around age 20 that women are simply a pain in the ass and not worth dealing with. I am going to mainly talk about the personal changes I went through after a couple of bad relationships.

So I graduate out of high school at age 18, and start reading more about eastern spirituality and meditation and yoga, and I start to become less attached to material things and more attached to spiritual stuff. Around that time, I took LSD with one really good friend of mine, and it really blew my mind. It was as if my perception was existing in a much higher level than ordinary normal consciousness. This experience confirmed in me that there exists a state of being outside of our normal everyday experience, and that there is definitely a metaphysical or spiritual aspect of reality. By this time I had my own apartment and was smoking marijuana occasionally, once a week or so, and having really mind blowing realizations about society, culture, God, spirituality, politics, and so on. Was working as a day job at a fast food place and at night I would smoke pot, watch movies, jack off to internet porn, and sometimes hanging out with some fellow friends who were also what you might call "alternative", that is they were also interested in spiritual shit and doing psychedelic drugs and such. All in all, it was a very enjoyable and enlightening period of my life.

Few months later, me and a couple of guys move to a city about 5 hours away from our hometown and get our own apartment together. I remember at that time, I was getting involved with one girl, a white girl, who was a couple years younger than me. I remember that around this time, I had gone back to our hometown to visit with her and hang out with her a bit. Long story short, after getting to know each other more and hanging out a lot more, I was at one friend's house staying the night and so was she. I passed out drunk and then woke up a bit later and went into my friends room and she was lying asleep on the bed with him. It was just kind of a shock that here was a girl who I thought we were developing a relationship and she just fucked one of our friends like it was nothing. I didn't say anything or make a scene about it but it started to really cement in my mind that women are nothing but a bunch of animals, a bunch of whores.

So we remained as friends and she visited my new apartment at our new city and each time she brought a male friend. By that time I had given up on trying to have any kind of relationship with her and so I didn't really care but it was still disgusting to me, to see a woman acting like a fucking whore and fucking tons of guys in such a short period of time (she had sex with a lot more guys than just those 3 I already mentioned). Around this time, I started getting to know a mexican girl I had met about a year before and who seemed like a very cool chick and was also very sexy. It was the first time I had started to get involved with a non-white woman. I am a white guy, by the way. I went and visited her a couple of times back in my hometown and spent some time with her at her apartment that she shared with some beta guy who was always playing World of Warcraft or Everquest or whatever the popular MMO was back then.

The mexican girl, she was so much different than any white girl I had ever met before, she actually had traditional values and wasn't a goddamn whore. We kept in touch and talked a lot about spirituality and religion and she wanted to live a civilized religious kind of life, a traditional conservative kind of lifestyle. She actually had family values, and after having dealt with disgusting slut whore white women my whole life, I was quite attracted to her and thought that she was one of the best girls I had ever met.

Eventually I moved back to my hometown and lost touch with the old crowd I had hung out with and started spending more time with the mexican girl. Around this time, she started to have a relationship with a foreign man from an Arabic country, I won't name which because I want to keep this story as anonymous as possible. It was quite a shock to me, I thought me and this mexican girl had started to get serious and perhaps even think about a long term relationship, and she goes and starts dating an Arab man. This was basically the final straw and I finally realized that women are worthless garbage.

All throughout this period, I had been gradually getting more serious about a particular spiritual process I was learning about, and at this point I realized that I did not ever want to get married and was totally disgusted with women. I started to seriously consider becoming a celibate monk, and after a couple more months, I met one fellow monk about my same age and he inspired me to take up the celibate monk lifestyle. So I joined the particular organization we were both a part of and started living a celibate monk lifestyle and this was the beginning of the end of my material life. From that point on, I started to experience a spiritual ecstasy so strong that the thought of women or marriage seemed insignificant. People are addicted to sex and addicted to women, but when you develop a higher taste, you are no longer attracted to the lower things. I very quickly forgot all about the couple of betrayals I had experienced with those two girls because I was experiencing happiness on a much higher level now. I had lost faith in women but I had gained faith in God.